Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Finally understand what it feels like to be my mum. yet i also understand what it feels like to be my dad. yet it is so difficult to reconcile the two feelings that i go through. one is that my mum needs to work to support my family. we are going through tough financial times due to a commitment made earlier. thats why she is unable to reject some of the things that the company ask her to do like travel and stay back late becoz she can't afford to lose her job. as for my dad, he's angry with my mum and the company for the very same reasons that my mum is angry about. making her travel, equals losing time spent with the family.
recently i am told that i have to spend a month in penang for work purposes. my gf wasn't very happy about it. i am also not very happy about it. thats coz i do not like spending time away from people that matter to me. but i know i have to do it coz of the obligations that i have. also the fact that i am working at my mum's company, i dun wan her reputation to be in the mud bcoz of me. thats why i have to agree with the decisions made. i can easily reject it and probably even leave if i want to, coz i believe i can find work outside. but the main driving force behind me doing so was bcoz i dun wanna disappoint my mum.
all i can do now is to pray and ask God for a vision. i want to know what can i do as His son, and my mother's son, and as an employee at this company. by His will i will do anything, as long as it comes from Him.
Speakth at... 8:14 PM
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