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Monday, October 15, 2007
confirmation. hopeless, gone. sigh.
Speakth at... 2:09 AM
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
to all those who have been logging on to my blog to check up on me, sorry for the irregular postings. haven't been able to find the mood to actually blog. things have been real tough for me recently. guess with my ever increasing assignments, family crap to handle, things haven't been easy.
but it is times like this tt i am grateful God sent me friends from long ago. friends whom i can depend on in times like this. it is funny that those friendships forged in a time long ago are used to strengthen and assure each other in times like this. times where i share my burdens with those whom i have known. they are definitely no help at all in helping me solve my problems. i mean, these friends of mine are useless in that aspect. but all that matters is that they are willing to listen to me, lend their shoulder when i wanna cry on, hit (though i hope not) when i am feeling frustrated. these are friends.
wanna start out by thanking them individually. the friend whom i have known personally 6 years ago, and has been walking beside me since then (and even before that though i never really accepted him), Jesus aka God. thank you. for you know me best. every time i do something stupid or think of something stupid, you are there to slap me and to point me in the right direction. there are times when i dun listen to you, and i still dun listen to you sometimes, but you've never left me. continue speaking to me. and slap me hard when you deem fit. i will never get mad at you, and i can never get mad at you.
my best buddy and avid swimmer cum anime drawing freak, pei wen aka pee wee. thanks for being a great listening ear. for taking time out that nite when i was possibly at my lowest point in my life. for praying for me and my family, and for just being there for me.
to my tall black bro dutt aka anaconda man, for being the all rational person. making me think things in perspective. for just being there for me all the time, for being the brother i never had, and for being my constant emailing buddy when i have to vent my frustrations to. sorry you have to take my load of crap from time to time. u never noe how much it means to me =D
to shao aka the big guy, though you and i haven't talked for like ass long, and i am still gonna smack you for not telling me and dutt abt larissa, but i know that you've been checkin my blog once in a while. thanks for being my spiritual buddy, and keepin me in ur prayers once a while. we shld chat soon. miss talking with ya, and esp ur nonsense.
to cheryl, thank goodness i was able to chat with you yesterday. it helped to hear your views on it, and it was great that we were able to just talk about anything and everything. i enjoyed myself a lot and am awaiting the time where you're back here in hot ole singapore. =D shall eagerly await our next msn session.
to ryan, though we haven't talked in ages, you were one of the first i told abt my problems, and thanks for hearing me out. i hope ur family is ok. and that you'll continue to work hard for ur degree.
to leen, sorry for not catching up with you for so long. but you've always held a special place in me. thanks for being there when i broke the news about what took place. we shld head out one day. chat, have coffee and juz catch up. its been a while, and online aint the best place for ppl who live in the same country. so said u to the tall black one eh?
to my church friends, thanks for praying for me constantly, and thank God i've grown closer to ya'll recently. esp to glenn, besides rachel, i think you are the only other person who knows me the best in church. the past deeds i've done, the way i think, and also my family situation. thanks for praying for me. =D
last but certainly not least, i wanna thank my one and only gal rach. for being my spiritual spouse, my lover, my other half mind, making me laugh when i can't seem to find reason to at times, for being her silly self, for being direct and for being who she is. words juz can't describe how much i am thankful for you everyday.
recently i haven't been able to smile much. even if i do smile, it is a superficial one. it is friends like this that brings the warmth back to my frozen and darken heart.
Speakth at... 9:40 PM
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