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Tuesday, February 27, 2007
deadlines... argh!!! so much work to do.... think this sem is my hardest sem so far. having to work part time and to finish up all my assignments is no easy task man.... sigh.... furthermore, i think that working in a group has its downsides as well, since everyone has to wait for each other's work to be done in order to carry on. but i do hope that things go well. to be honest, i am most worried about my social work module because we haven't really gotten down to doing anything. sigh... as for my other modules.... i'll have to depend on myself to see it through since it is all individual papers. sigh.......... why oh why..... but i guess it is such assignments that keep us on our toes. anyway, gotta go. dun think i'll be posting anytime soon anyway..... from the looks of my timetable... i am screwed!
Speakth at... 11:02 PM
Monday, February 26, 2007
damn, i have been really unlucky so far.... lost my dad's bluetooth headset, then i've lost my own house key and my internet banking token... shikes!!!! what terrible luck. guess the piggy year is a crappy year for me man! argh!
Speakth at... 8:34 PM
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
ok, i have here a thought. thanks to sheryl, now i can't get it out of my head..... i am not saying this is the right way, or that i am going to do it, but it is just a silly thought. if you wanna go hit someone, go hit her. not me.
well, it starts with Chinese New Year. since many people dun quite like it, and i mean the adults here, because they lose money, something like this can be done.
dun get married but have kids. wahaha! because firstly, your relatives will have to give your kids red packets since they are young, and you will get red packets since you aren't married. furthermore, you wun have to give red packets since you aren't married. whats more, all the money your kid gets will be yours.... win-win situation man! wahaha.....
but please do NOT do it.... like i said, it is just a stupid thought.... it is IMMORAL!!!!! and chinese new year is only once a year!... anyway, Happy new year to all yellow skin peeps out there.... may ya'll get many red packets..... juz dun forget to share them with me... hee
Speakth at... 11:53 PM
Thursday, February 15, 2007
this post is with regard to my favourite topic on homosexuality. .... again. i dunno y i am so interested in it, but i juz am. well, as i was showering, a conversation that took place with a friend of mine went thru my head, and it went something like, 'do you think gays can be
christians?' and at tat time, my initial response was a definite NO WAY. there is no way in all of eart's existence that a christian can be gay. yet when i asked God why was something that was so blatantly correct reminded to me at an unearthly hour, He said to me, so are you a christian then? and that stumped me.
well, i am going through some issues, something that i believe many guys are also combating concurrently with me. it's got to do with sexual sin, or more specifically certain areas of sexual sin. some of my friends from church would know what i am talking about. we all know that the Bible, and Christ speaks strongly against it. yet, many times, and i'm sure almost all the men can attest to it fall into it as well. i hope i need not spell out what exactly. so in actual fact, i have sinned.
so then the link is, how am i different from a homosexual? after that thought process, i realize that i am actually NO DIFFERENT from a homosexual who claims to be christian. in fact i have been a hypocrite since the day i said gays can't be christians. similarly whenever i say vulgarities such as 'fuck, asshole, kan nee nah and the likes', i am no different to them in our Lord's eyes.
so i can only conclude that we as The Church of Christ are terribly blinded by our own pride. because we are so used to those parts of sexual sin or profanities, we see them as less of a sin then homosexuality. have we ever stopped to consider the great battle that is embroiled within them, the very same battle that we are facing each day with our own human sinful struggles?
i guess i am just voicing out my own frustrations at how low i perceive the Church has gone down to, or i could actually be speaking with the heart of our Lord. i feel it is the latter, but some of you
may think i am biased. anyhow, this is all i have to say. i admit this is my own reflections.
and to end off, i am not trying to discount Christianity but to question what we have been doing in our Lord's love.
Speakth at... 7:56 AM
Sunday, February 11, 2007
hope this is a good start to regular blogging. i dunno when i will stop since i have been so busy with work and school work. i do enjoy my work, meeting people, but sometimes it does get a little tiring. oh well, guess i can only find refuge in my Lord. He gives me the rest i need.
i woke up this morning to a very interesting sms sent by Grace (at an unearthly hour of 7am. who the hell is up at that time on SUNDAYS!!!!). anyway, she asked for a book on Christianity, and i was pleasant surprised at this because she happened to be someone who has somehow lost her faith in the Lord through the happenings in her life. her family has been forcing her to go to church although she doesn't feel like it (i never felt people should be forced to go to church, that is why i am so ashamed about the Crusades). but that she is finding interest in Christ, i can only feel happy, not for myself.
currently i am praying for two of my friends to come to know of my Lord. i shan't say who they are, but they are dear friends of mine who have taken a nonchalant stance towards christianity. i dun blame them because there are many things that christianity does that i am ashamed about. but i know that in time to come, they will juz know Christ.
ok, i know many people would be thinking this is a Christ crazed person here, so i shall write about something of my life. Sigh... i will be going for a threesome come valentine's day. the girl we'll be going out with is so happy coz she'll be out with two guys... sighz... but the two of us feel like we're losers since we are unable to get our own individual dates... Bro, we are losers man... but it is ok. come next year, you'll find a date, and i will sure as hell get a girl too! wahaha. yup! but this year i will spend valentine's with dear friends rather then with a darling. well, out of 23 years of my life i have spent about 19 or 20 years without a girl i am interested in, so i guess there's no big deal about it.
on a sadder note, two of my bestest friends will be leaving the country this year. Shao is leaving the following week, and Kunal come July. sighz, the whole world has left me, pee and ry alone in this desolate island. seems like the place will be a lil quieter from this year forth. sigh.... oh well, when you gotta go, you gotta go. maybe if my funds are alright, i will visit them when my timing is alright. until then, it is back to school work, more research, more deadlines, more time spent on my lappy till my eyes go blind, and more work assignments at the various schools. story of my life.
Speakth at... 11:51 PM
Saturday, February 10, 2007
well, i guess this week has been a pretty good week for me. it was also a snowball from the previous week as last week was pretty good as well. work at HATC has been pretty awesome. not that the company is all that great. i mean it is a good company, but the one thing i can't stand about that company is that everyone seems to work really late hours, it is crazy. and i for one can't stand working till late. i mean i was already complaining when i worked at my mum's office and got back at 10pm. these people are crazier.
but when i said work, i mean going down to the various schools and touching the lives of these students. every single time, i go down, i only have one mission in my mind. that is to tell these kids the mistakes i made in the past, and hope they do not fall into the same pitholes i once fell into. when i do the various programs, i am very open and very honest to these kids, and it really makes my day when they remember you and open up their lives as well. it is really sad that so many of our young these days lack in confidence. the system is such that those who either belong to a lower class rank or school rank tend to fall behind. i feel this sucks, but i can't do much to change the system. all i can do is to assert positive attitudes in them.
and i wanna thank alex for that very awesome audit/debrief that day. until that time, i felt that i always lacked that extra something to make my program delivery more impactful and meaningful for the kids, and it was thanks to him that i finally understood what was missing. i can't promise the next program i do will be terrific, but i can promise it will be better then the previous one. and this time, i will speak from my heart and head, rather then through my mouth.
thats all the good part. now i have to get through my papers. so many to do, and the holidays are coming up. i still do not understand so many parts of my modules, although i am conscientiously attending my lectures. sigh, i guess such things happen when you want to get an education, yet need to worry about putting food on the table, and also to have some money ready in case my family needs to utilize the cash. sometimes i wish i need not work so hard despite my enjoying what i do, and focus all my attention on my school work. but i know that, and after today's cell meeting, i can do anything, as long as i rely on my Lord for guidance and strength, and just be contented with how my life is going right now.
oh btw, did i mention i need a date for valentine's day???? wahaha.... nah i am kidding. i think it is stupid to go out on that day. everything will be SOOOOO ex!
p.s. can someone tell me what is so attractive about gals from the east??? i juz can't understand it!
Speakth at... 12:04 AM
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
i am sure most of you would go "what on earth" when you see this message. but i assure you that everything i am about to say here would be steered towards the title.
well, this is a true account of something that took place 2 to 3 nights ago when i was lying on my bed falling asleep. maybe some of you have had the experience before but i am sure many have not. i never had such an experience prior to then. as i was lying down about to fall asleep, suddenly i felt as though some kind of pressure was applied onto my entire body. i could not speak, i could not move. the only think that was still functioning was my mind. i couldn't even open my eyes (i was still breathing so i guess that functioned as well). in my head i could hear demonic voices taunting me in languages i never could understand. was i scared, you bet. i mean i could hear my mum and brother talking outside my room, but there was nothing i could do to get their attention since i was already immobilized. i wanted to pray but my lips did not respond to my mind. you could say i kinda felt detached from my body. so i did the next most logical thing. i focused all my willpower on the cross on which our savior died on, and true enough as He has promised in Phil 4:13, i found strength. the more i gotten strength from Him, i was then able to regain my vocal functions and started to pray in tongues. slowly i gained control over my body and felt the pressure leaving me. i was saved by the power i never deserved.
why did i share this? well, i am still trying to understand why was i put through such an ordeal. but more importantly, it served to strengthen my wavering faith in our Savior (which still wavers from time to time) and ultimately, i want to just share it coz i feel compelled to.
thats all, sorry for ranting like this. juz needed to get it off my chest.
Speakth at... 10:22 PM
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