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Thursday, September 20, 2007
just got back from a trying dinner. sometimes i feel that there are some things that people shouldn't say, there are some things that should be said in a different way, there are some things that should be said straight in the face. but obviously what took place earlier did not follow those rules. led to a really awkward time at the dinner table, and even worst, caused 2 people to be in awkward positions, and a third juz sitting on the seat playing video games.
happened to stumble across some of the cards i've received from my friends. made me think back on the past. the many people i've come across, the many people whose lives were intertwined with mine because our paths met. i was glad i was able to meet them, have their lives touched by me and vice versa. only thing is i was unable to hold on to all of them and maintain it. times have come and gone. they will just remain as a memory, to be recalled when i am getting older and graying. are we just made to be friends with some, and to forgo it when the time comes?
i miss those days. days where i was carefree, days where the only things i had to be bothered with were my studies, my fav sports and recreation, the friends i hung out with, the girls i tried to go after, failed but still remained friends with. now it seems like more and more burdens are flung my way. is it coz i am older? is it coz i am more matured, able to think better? is it coz i am now a father of 2 people who can't seem to get along already? why the role reversals? the burdens are weighing me down bit by bit. heavy they are.
but the only answer to all my problems is to look to You. how long shall i rely on my own strength? how long shall i depend upon my own rationale thinking and arguments before they turn out to be not so logical after all? how long shall i continue to allow myself to be swallowed by the sin which i have promised to forsake? are they all burdens? or are they just self imposed?
seems like nowadays my posts are getting darker and darker. i guess it is just a reflection of how my life is like nw. may the lite come soon. i have no idea how long i can hold out. "let there be light" shine upon me.
Speakth at... 9:02 PM
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
i shall not be afraid to voice my opinions, even if it does not sit well with the person i am talking to. i shall not be afraid for i know wat i believe in, and i noe tt what i am saying is well thought through, and is from the one i love. fear shall not overpower me.
Speakth at... 9:33 AM
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