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Monday, April 30, 2007
finished my revisions for my last module, so am taking the rest of the night off for now. as i had nothing else to do, and isabella has no games on her coz i absolutely refuse to have any such distractions, i chose to distract myself in another way. looking at the pics i have on her. sure brought back some fond memories.
but i guess the pictures that made me smile the most, and probably the saddest ones are those that happened last year december. memories of that time will definitely stay with me thruout. times with people whom i really treasure loads, and a place i still dearly love.
i can still remember the days leading up to it. hw i refused to spend more then $3 a meal (including drinks) juz so i cld afford the trip. i could also remember planning for it. i din do much, but it was still an experience. then right up to the nite before the departure, lying on kunal's bed and not being able to slp becoz of the exhilaration of traveling with friends, and lifelong buddies at that. something all the money on this earth cannot buy.
and i am sad after the smile. coz i know that such a thing will b hard to do again. no doubt i will be traveling with my special someone in time to come. i mean i do love to see this world as much as my eyes can take in, and before some disease takes my memories away. but to be able to travel, the four of us, it is something that will be really hard to do. shao's in aussieland, dutt's flyin to the US soon. pee's started sch, and i am hopefully ending my education between the next 2 to 3 years. after that, all of us will have plans to work, set up our home and settle down. i dunno if something like that can happen or not. i sure hope if God allows we will. how i wish i could relive those times again. i guess i will when i give my testimony to my Lord when i see Him.
but i guess i can't complain. at least i am able to have such an experience. many people on this earth never seen an aeroplane, much less fly on one before. some ppl sat on it before, but have never flown out of their region. i should be glad i am blessed enough to travel, and will be traveling in time to come. on hindsight, i dun think i am complaining, i guess i am juz sad abt the inevitable fact that something like that can never happen again. sigh.
life is short. it really is. 23 years of existence juz flown by. memories stay, muscles are developed and destroyed. friends come and go. we learn from our past mistakes, our past relationships. ultimately, it is our memories that define who we are. and define hw we act and think. i know because recently, it has juz become more obvious that i am a product of my experiences through talking to someone. it has been an enlightening experience. we will all leave this earth the way we came. naked... but we will be full of memories. money is worthless, material goods are worthless, friends, loved ones can't be carried to the next life. but the experience earned is worth far greater then anything this world has to offer, anything except the love and sacrifice our Lord gave.
i dunno wat came over me today. feel kinda in a reminiscing mood. nt sad or anything, in fact, i am very happy. i really am. exams coming to an end soon, gonna start the work i so enjoy doing, and getting to know a special someone better. i'm not saying all is good. there are some shitty parts. but i shall thank God that i have experiences that i can smile at.
so thank you. shao, kunal and peiwen. for being a part of my life. for being a part of my memory. if God allows, may we travel to some part of the world again, as friends. and this time, if money allows, ryan and leen, do tag along too. nothing beats good times spent with friends. and if ur respective partners wanna tag along, i say bring it on.
gosh... i really am looking into the future a lot these days. mayb its coz i can't wait till the future comes. i can foresee full of trials and tribulations. but with You, my Lord beside me, i will juz dance along with u, and keep my eyes focused on the one leading me all the time.
Spanks (Thanks), Lord. for blessing me so abundantly.
p.s. i hope God allows David's (i hope i remember his name rite) path and mine to cross once again. i promise i will set it right this time. i promise i will help him out. unlike last time where i ignored him.
Speakth at... 9:12 PM
Friday, April 27, 2007
opening my heart is probably the hardest thing i would be doing at this point in time. @sigh@
anyway, i wanna thank Dr Millie for her reply. i am no longer angry at the NM paper fiasco anymore. and i guess i was a little stupid to make such a big fuss over something so small. life is full of unexpected changes. if i am gonna bitch abt this, then i have seriously failed as a human. my bad. sorry.
Speakth at... 1:12 AM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
the following post comes from a very angsty me. so read with caution.
kan nah sai! chao NM dept of NUS. i hope some mother son from the NM dept of NUS reads my post. i mean wat the hell man! at first you told us it'll be 50 mcq qns. then when i sat down at my table earlier and read the cover page, guess wat! it turned out to be 32 mcq qns and 8(i think) short answer questions. i mean please lah... there is a reason WHY NUS incorporated IVLE into the education man. did it NOT cross ur mind that THE INTERNET IS a form of communication medium that you taught us? makes me think wat the hell they gave you the professor title for. i mean like only last night at 12 midnite then u change it suddenly. come on lah! it can't be THAT last minute. even a 3 year old knows that. i m seriously doubting the brains behind the NUS organization man. for wat do they pay u so much for, and furthermore, you TEACH something but DO NOT USE? bloody hell! wake up ur bladdy idea can! stupid NM dept. damn bloody pissed!!! nah beh! (Evil Chao Ah Beng Ego)
now its back to my normal civilized persona.
recently, some of my old thorns started to recur. i thought i was able to subdue those demons, and i thought i was able to finally kill them. but i guess they were still lurking in the back of my subconscious somewhere, waiting for that opportune time when i am weak and scared. talking to someone about regrets in stemming from the past triggered it i guess. its kinda scary. on one hand, i think that it is kinda good that i know it is something that i never was able to conquer, but on the other hand, it's juz holding me back. this past that i wanna get rid off scares me, prevents me from pushing on ahead, and even impedes me. its nt ur fault that it came up. i guess eventually i'll have to tell you what is it that i m nt too fond of remembering. its funny hw the human body works. the more we wanna forget something, the stronger the memory gets. hw i wish the same can be said about my exams. @sigh@
but as i wallow in my pitiful state, God threw this verse at me. he has a knack for doing such things when i am in my deepest darkest hour. and i thank glenn and tard for helping me find it coz i myself am nt good at remembering verses from the Holy Word. so thank you glenn and tard. and thank you Father. for as u promised, u've never forsaken me. kum sia lao peh!
so here is the verse from 2 Corinthians 12:7-10. To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when i am weak, then I am strong
so yes. i will try my best to boast of my weakness. for where i am weak, i am strong. nt through my own grace and power, but through the one who died for me. i still tear when i think of the scenes enacted. but i shudder to think that i will definitely be the one nailing his wrists into the crucifix, or spitting and sneering at him, if i were living in His time. sorry, Lord.
Speakth at... 10:00 PM
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
i like this quote. heard it from mike when we were studying over the weekend in school. "God gave men two heads, but only enough blood to fill up one of them" Quote from Lucas, someone i dunno very well, but i juz noe from SAJC.
please please please let me maintain my grades for this sem. let me better or maintain the grades i got for my mid term papers.... PLEASE!
Speakth at... 8:26 PM
Thursday, April 19, 2007
today was really a crappy day. actually, it was a string of events tt led up to it. isabella came down with a viral infection abt 1 to 2 weeks ago. after that, she became so slow, that i juz couldn't take it anymore. i guess some things frustrate me, and i can't stand it when my laptop is so slow. for those of you who don't know yet, isabella is my laptop. =) i kinda like the name. think its a really sweet name.
i guess i am the type of person that doesn't like to work with the wrong kind of tools. in order for me to get any job done, i like my tools to be in tip top condition, and i also dun like to use 'blunt' tools. with my exams coming up (like this sat!!!) and being the frustrated person i am, i decided to reformat my entire PC so as to get it back to its old faster self.
sigh, spent like 5 hours today reformatting, getting some of my old programs installed, copying my files from the external hard drive back to isabella. she's much faster now, but there's this problem, where she hangs, or she justs stops working. i dunno wats wrong with her. this is the first time such a thing happened. i guess its the media player, coz i was using it to watch a webcast earlier. but it never happened before. sigh. of all the shit to happen.
so i was frustrated coz i didn't get much done today, other then watch Jose Rizal which i felt was very important for my Social theory paper. think i got a better understanding on why his thoughts were the way they were, and if u ask me, it is so parallel to Jesus's story. maybe the director made it in such a way, or maybe Rizal really did emulate my Lord. either way, i quite enjoyed that really old film. teaches me that in spite of what everyone else thinks, as long as you know that deep within you whatever it is that you're doing is right, and you know God is behind you in all that you do, even if the religious institutions are against u, then there shld be nothing to fear.
and funnily enough, Psalm 23 juz jumped right out at me today. for one, i guess it is staring at me on my wallpaper, and it is today's devotional readings, but something about it strengthen me in my frustration today. "The LORD is my shepherd, i shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i will dear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff they comfort me. you prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and i will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
he's telling me i'll find rest in Him. He's telling me that in all i do, exalt Him and trust in Him. all my work and effort will pay off eventually as long as i have Him by me. for i have found my rest in my Lord. have you?
i guess it is kinda silly of me to blog abt this in the midst of my exams, but if u ask me, i am nt too worried abt it already, coz i think Daddy's telling me i need to take a break, and He asked me to trust Him. so i will. i will take a short 30 min break, and attempt to settle my computer stuff.
may your healing hands come upon my beloved Isabella. for she has served me well thus far. =)
Speakth at... 9:53 PM
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
i was shocked when i heard the news. my heart juz dropped when my dad called me to his room and told me to watch CNN. the news? Virginia Tech shootings by a South Korean guy my age. it didn't really bother me that he was a South Korean (which btw isn't communist). he could be Chinese, Caucasian, Malay, Jew, Indian, he could be a muslim, buddhist, catholic, taoist, christian, and other kinds of religion for all i care. the fact is that he actually took a gun and killed some 32 of his sch mates (32 at last count since i watched the news again this morning, CNN is having a field day because of this story).
they still couldn't figure out his motive for killing so far. everything boils down to speculation. everyone CNN interviewed said that the killer, whose name was Cho Seung Hui, was a loner. and his professors in Virginia Tech Uni said that the plays he came up with reflected a troubled mind. all these signs were apparent for some time now. why didn't someone go forth and reach out to this hurtful soul? y was he left to wallow in angst and pain? koreans called him the 1.5 generation, i.e. he was uprooted from his homeland mid life and brought to a foreign place to grow up. could that be a reason for it? these are juz some of the possible reasons for his thoughts and motive for killing his school mates.
but what pisses me off most is that the bloody American Administration did not heed the lessons from the Columbine High School Shootings. you would have thought that they would have enough brains by then to scrap the Second Amendment. the Second Amendment btw is "A well regulated militia being necessary to the security of a free State, the right of the People to keep and bear arms shall not be infringed." which brainless fools would allow ANYBODY to keep and bear arms??? i mean seriously! regulate the use of arms. allow law enforcements, security, the military to own the arms, and the use of the arms be kept in strict check by those agencies! who the f**k allows any Tom, Dick or Harry, Mary, Sally and any idiot on the street who more often then not has no sense of decency and brains to have self control over who to pull the trigger on?? tell me.
i think the Americans deserve it all along. my heart does go out to the people who have perished under the unstable and sad mind of Cho. but i believe something good will come out of it. seriously. scrap the Second Amendment. it is not worth having guns on the streets, where anyone has the power to take a life. the gun never was an evil object. it is people who have the propensity to be evil. give them a life-ending mechanism, and the possibility for more people dying would increase. take a leaf out of Singapore's book. prohibit arms on the streets. it is juz plain stupidity. unless you want another Virginia Tech or Columbine High School incident to occur again.
do you want your kids to go to sch feeling unsafe? do you want to live ur lives in constant fear that a bullet is all it takes to end it? as much as i want to meet my Father soon, i believe we have the power to stop this mindlessness.
it is better to lose a whole arms economy. i know that the arms trade is a booming business that rakes in millions of dollars every year. it is lucrative. it puts more money in the pockets of those rich fat bastards. but it is thanks to them that people are dying. better to lose millions of dollars then to lose even one life to irrationality. the blood shed this morning (American time) is on everybodies hands. unless we all come together to agree to limit the common people's use of firearms, we will ALWAYS live in fear. we are no longer a single community, but a global community. so please. scrap the bloody 2nd Amendment.
and Father, i just ask that u stay by the side of those who are undergoing grief and pain from the killings. may ur peace overtake them, and let them know that those who died are in a better world, right where you are. may more people turn to u in these times and say u are Lord. i find it hard to rejoice now, but i am called to rejoice in times of sadness. i hope i can do it. i hope i can. all this i ask in my Lord's name.
and sorry for the 'all over the place' rambling. i juz ramble without structuring my thoughts when it comes to these things. hope i wun do it for my exams. i will surely fail if i write like i did.
Speakth at... 9:41 AM
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
went to collect my term papers for SC2101 and GEK 1012 yesterday. was pleasantly surprised by my grades coz i din expect to do as well as i did. kinda happy, but i'm afraid i'll get complacent and not study. so ernest, DO NOT get complacent! you need to do really really well this sem for ur exams if u wanna move on to honours.
on another note, i am quite tired from studying. i juz hope i can get the mood back. it seems i study best in the morning after i wake up, and at night before i slp. other times and everything juz seems to fly outta my head. =(
and great joy fills my heart as each day passes coz i've found my deepest desire for the longest time.
Speakth at... 3:17 PM
Saturday, April 14, 2007
today was a rather slow day. other then joggin with ray in the morning, the rest of my day was really slow. what to do. the bloody exams are coming up. complacency is creeping up on me. its scary. i haven't been doing well in my exams, but yet when i study, i feel as though i already know all the stuff i m reading. may God take this complacency off me. please. it is killing me!!!
anyway, wanna say that my mum was really dumb today. two incidences that made her look dumb. guess we all have our days eh?
well, for starters, there are four ppl in my family. my dad, my mum, my lil bro and myself. my dad was in the living room, i was in my parent's bedroom's toilet washing my face. she came in to the toilet i was in and asked me this really stupid question. "who is in the other toilet?" i looked at her and blinked.... i asked her if she was really asking me that qn. and she repeated it again. feeling naughty and cheeky, i din answer her. i juz said, "we have 4 ppl in this family. dad is in the living room, i am here in front of u, u are talking to me, WHO else is there? ghost ah???" and she burst out laughing at her stupidity. heh!
another dumb incident. my mum opened the fridge and exclaimed "whoa! got mango ah!" i jumped up with glee coz i love mangoes. but my dad gave the puzzled look and asked hw can there be mangoes when he din buy any. so i went to the fridge and took a look. guess what i saw.... ***drum roll*** a single mangosteen.... @slaps palm on forehead@ mango and mangosteen tak sama lah ibu!!!
one of those days where my mum is a clown. =)
Speakth at... 10:16 PM
Thursday, April 12, 2007
not a very fantastic ippt. but at least i improved from last year's timing. Sit Up: 43 reps, Broad Jump: 243cm, Chin Ups: 12 reps, Shuttle Run: 9.3s, 2.4km: 9min 59s. sigh. i am like 45s away from gold. guess i will have to train harder then. kinda desperate for the money.
anyway, i juz wanna say that i hate father time. why can't he slow down when i want to, and speed up when i want it to? it sucks! argh!
now my feet hurt from ippt. will need some rest. will stay home the whole day and do some studying to prepare for my upcoming exams. i need to do well man.
and thank you Daddy. although the timing for answering this prayer of mine is seriously off, but u answered it nonetheless. i guess doesn't only make us wait for a prayer request to be answered, but he surprises us at times by answering it even before we are ready for it. but i am not complaining. @playfully punches Daddy@
Speakth at... 9:44 PM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
guess i should have stretch properly yesterday. my legs hurt so badly when i did a pretty slow run to the park today. i juz hope that the pain won't be there when i do my ippt this thur. i need that $400 man! but sigh, my pull ups suck now... i can't even manage 10 now, what more 12...urgh! hope i will be able to muscle up some strength come thur to hit 12. then run like i've never run before.
well, today i went with leanna, i.e. nerd slut (she keeps saying she looks geeky in her new glasses, but she actually looks nt too bad in it) here's a pic of her very first nerd slut pose coz she wasn't able to conjure up her latest and newest nerd slut pose. heh. but wait up for it ppl. i will force it outta her... somehow :)
went with leanna to have botak jones. food was great and was decently cheap for the food we got. the triple patty burger was DA BOMB man!!! i dun think any human can possible stuff the entire 3 patties and buns down their throats. it is THAT big!!! i wouldn't mind going back again... but not so soon. i haven't gotten my money back yet. argh!!! and i dunno what's taking them so long =( i'm a poor uni student here. whats more, my paycheck is taking ages to come in... sigh. dun be surprise my friends if u see me skinny. no money, no food. no money, no dates. sad life i lead man. =(
here are some pics of that HUGE burger. and its 12 bucks. nt too bad i say.
does Botak need a male model for burger advertisement? i'm up for grabs.
came across this msg. very nice. "If i said i love you, what would you think? If i said I treasure our time together, would you ignore me? I am at a loss for words. But I will always be here for you if you need me. -God-
how true is that. =) because He loves me, i can carry on living without in His ways, and because He has forgiven my sins, i am able to live my life the way it ought to be, away from the bondage the devil kept me under. i am a saved sinner. i am not sinless, but i am working to sin-less.
Speakth at... 6:56 PM
Sunday, April 08, 2007
i've been way too arrogant in the past. since jc, i've thought the world of myself. sigh. too reliant on my own strength, that i'll scoff at others' help. only when i needed their help i'll stretch out my hands at the very last minute. sheesh.
today, i'll like to thank 2 ppl, well, make it 5 if u do consider the next 3 to be PPL. firstly, glenn. thanks for asking me to go down, and reminding me that today is indeed a special day for us christ believers. actually all i wanted to do was juz to go for the sunrise one, so that i have the rest of the day to study. but thanks to ur prompting, i've gone down. 2ndly to ray, thanks for nudging me in the right direction the way u noe best. nt forceful, hinting yet gently. juz the right amts that doesn't push me overboard. thanks. to the 3 in one God, thank u for humbling me. for i was arrogant. u could have juz abandoned me. but u didn't. Thank YOU. u blinded me so that i can see what u see, and i have seen. i didn't like what i see, but as the saying goes, the truth hurts. but u've healed me. and i shall try my best to have u as my guiding post, to follow u more and more each day. to be the man u want me to be. i guess i've fallen short of ur ideal for me. but i promise to listen to u now and obey.
so do not forsake me. do not leave me. always talk to me, and forgive me when i talk. for now i shall try to listen. and if i dun listen, make me deaf to everything else, and make me dumb. so that all i hear is You. =) aishiteru, zutto. watashi no kamisama.
p.s. 10th of march is a day i'll never forget. ever.
Speakth at... 9:40 PM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
i guess it takes a song and a heart to heart talk with you to realize one of the biggest attitude problems i have been having for the longest time. i kinda knew this problem existed within me, but i guess i was juz too pig-headed to change. i kept thinking i was wrong. i'm sorry to my brothers and sisters if i've shut you out of my life. i guess it's my bad. i'm not even sure if any of u read my blog, but i still want to say i'm sorry. i cannot promise a 180 degree turn about, but i can promise i'll try to change for the better. and sorry Daddy. i haven't been the man u've always wanted me to be. i'll listen more to u frm nw on. promise. ***hooks pinkie with Daddy***
Speakth at... 12:53 AM
Friday, April 06, 2007
i guess i can say nw that i know how you feel. that people do not want to experience ur death. it was sad that they refused to go. but i am sure one day they would understand y u did that. forgive them. they know not what they are doing.
Speakth at... 10:57 AM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
i've come across this really sweet prayer. think it means a lot to me now especially at this point in time.
"Father in heaven, i pray that you will always be with us. That we shall not only be receptive but obedient to overcome temptation, and to always keep you in our hearts, minds and spirit, so that our focus will not be on worldly things but on you Lord. I pray that you give us strength and the drive to glorify your name. I love you. Amen."
things are happening in my life at this juncture. i know it is a bit too early considering i haven't finished my exams yet, but i always like to plan early. i'm still deciding between my career after i graduate. whether to go full time into my HATC work or to be a PE teacher. may the Lord shed light on this. whatever it is, His will be done, not mine.
went for the prayer thing yesterday. never before did i cry like i did then. guess the Holy Spirit responded to my remorseful heart and touched me then. i didn't bawl like a baby, but i cried. kinda like pent up emotions gushing out of a floodgate. it felt good, but i still feel bad that all i did was talk yesterday but didn't allow Him to talk to me. Sorry Daddy for being so one sided. i will listen to you today and as long as you want.
crap, studying is so tiring. intended to slp for a bit but ended up taking up more of my study time. hope that the extended slp time will allow me to study better. i have one more chapter to go before i am done for what i set out to accomplish today. hope i can get those things drilled into my thick and stubborn head. i need discipline, and the drive and determination to do well for my exams. coz i do wanna do honors. juz pray that i will be able to then. can't do much but work my ass off and pray about it. To Daddy: You better do Your part coz i am doing mine!!! heh!
anyway, decided to scrap the idea of getting an ipod. will get a pair of M-frames and a 100GB external hard drive instead. works out better this way coz i dun really need a music play, since i hardly listen to it. i feel that music distracts me from something else that i enjoy doing more, and that is ppl watching and thinking about stuff. its always more fun to ppl watch, or to think about where i wanna be headed to in life.
right now i am listening to "Who Am I" from Casting Crowns. I really love this song. its a really reflective song, and i do love reflective songs such as these. =)
Speakth at... 8:29 PM
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
today was a sweet day. no studying, no work, juz pure enjoyment with ppl who matter. i do hope to spend more of such time after i come out of my 'mountatin'
yes, i am going into the 'mountain' to prepare for my exams. it is that time again where i refuse all forms of social events, and juz prepare for my hated exams. really hope i can do well this time. this time i pray that i be given the brains of my lecturers, so that i will know what they want and write wat they want. heh!
anyway, i wanna thank God for making one of my prayers come true! it has to do with my best buddy Pei Wen. Yup! congrats bro! you know what i mean! its good to see that ur heart's desire is fulfilled. do not let go of this chance again man! and when u feel like giving up, i'll be right next to you ever ready to lay the smack down!
now when will i have my heart's desire fulfilled? guess i'll have to wait till the end of the year. damn! it seems so far away! when will it come??????? argh!
Speakth at... 9:48 PM
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
i'm sitting here in my lecture waiting for it to be over. i am kinda tired from studyin. can't wait for tmr to come. my long awaited rest day awaits.
i am scared about my exams. i never was good at writing. i suck at formulating my thoughts in papers. i'm way better at talking. sigh. why can't they have oral exams? oh well, i can never get what i want eh? i juz pray that this sem, i will have a B+ average, so i can pull my CAP up. PLEASE HELP ME!!!
something that i can have is this. heh! my M-Frames Sweep. anyone got lobang? i've been lusting after it for a long time. it is not the nicest, but it does its job, especially when i buy my road bike in time to come. so here you go.
Speakth at... 7:04 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007
Above All
Above all powers
Above all kings
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began
Above all kingdoms
Above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what You're worth
Crucified
Laid behind a stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a Rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all
now comes my thoughts
this is the song that literally opened my eyes to the humbleness and the love that Jesus showed. for the longest time i had rejected him. but thanks to this song, accompanied by the healing touch of the Holy Spirit did i weep like i never weeped, felt remorsed over my countless wrongdoings. His wounds, His pain, His hurt. He deserved none of it. AT ALL. but He willingly took it upon Himself. just because He loves me. i was touched at the age of 17 by this song. i'm 23 this year, and never passed a day where i would forget that experience. 6 years and counting. He's been faithful, He's allowed me to grow. i've gone through some hard times, some happy times, and He's never farther then where i need Him most. there were times where i felt He was far away, but in fact it was myself who distanced myself from Him.
thank you Lord, for thinking about me. for You above all, deserve my entire heart. you know my heart's desire. and that particular desire is why i go home straight home from church as much as possible after service. i've been asking for the LONGEST time. you've added one to ur flock. now i ask for another two to be added. it hurts, yes it does, but i juz want you to know that here i am, ask and i will answer. send and i will go. speak and i will say. in Your time.
i can finally heave a sigh of relief... well, not totally, but somewhat. handed in my last two term papers. juz have one more presentation next week and i will be done. after that, i will charge straight for my exams. i really hope to do better this sem. if the trend has anything to show, i have to do better this sem, since it is sem 2. i mean i always did better in sem 2. heh. oh well.
now i juz can't wait for wed. i really need a break. BREAK! BREAK BREAK! REST! REST! REST! need to recharge those batteries.
argh! IPPT on the 12th. i wanna get gold! Ernest! juz shut your brain, and run as if Pauline Chia was begging you to marry her! wahaha... now that is a sick thought. i bet all my Outram frens noe wat i mean. heh!
and someone juz had a ball of a time spending my money online! he better make sure i dunno him. otherwise, i'll do something drastic!
Speakth at... 8:22 PM
+ ernest tan
+ singaporean
+ gemini
+ rat
+ attached and in love
+ university student
+ biathlete cum waterboy
+ sporty
+ fun loving
+ exercise freak
+ friendly
+ impatient
+ Christian
+ water polo
+ swimming
+ running
+ chatting with friends
+ eating good food
+Road Bike
+Harry Potter 7th Book
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