Saturday, February 10, 2007
well, i guess this week has been a pretty good week for me. it was also a snowball from the previous week as last week was pretty good as well. work at HATC has been pretty awesome. not that the company is all that great. i mean it is a good company, but the one thing i can't stand about that company is that everyone seems to work really late hours, it is crazy. and i for one can't stand working till late. i mean i was already complaining when i worked at my mum's office and got back at 10pm. these people are crazier.
but when i said work, i mean going down to the various schools and touching the lives of these students. every single time, i go down, i only have one mission in my mind. that is to tell these kids the mistakes i made in the past, and hope they do not fall into the same pitholes i once fell into. when i do the various programs, i am very open and very honest to these kids, and it really makes my day when they remember you and open up their lives as well. it is really sad that so many of our young these days lack in confidence. the system is such that those who either belong to a lower class rank or school rank tend to fall behind. i feel this sucks, but i can't do much to change the system. all i can do is to assert positive attitudes in them.
and i wanna thank alex for that very awesome audit/debrief that day. until that time, i felt that i always lacked that extra something to make my program delivery more impactful and meaningful for the kids, and it was thanks to him that i finally understood what was missing. i can't promise the next program i do will be terrific, but i can promise it will be better then the previous one. and this time, i will speak from my heart and head, rather then through my mouth.
thats all the good part. now i have to get through my papers. so many to do, and the holidays are coming up. i still do not understand so many parts of my modules, although i am conscientiously attending my lectures. sigh, i guess such things happen when you want to get an education, yet need to worry about putting food on the table, and also to have some money ready in case my family needs to utilize the cash. sometimes i wish i need not work so hard despite my enjoying what i do, and focus all my attention on my school work. but i know that, and after today's cell meeting, i can do anything, as long as i rely on my Lord for guidance and strength, and just be contented with how my life is going right now.
oh btw, did i mention i need a date for valentine's day???? wahaha.... nah i am kidding. i think it is stupid to go out on that day. everything will be SOOOOO ex!
p.s. can someone tell me what is so attractive about gals from the east??? i juz can't understand it!
Speakth at... 12:04 AM
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