Thursday, April 19, 2007
today was really a crappy day. actually, it was a string of events tt led up to it. isabella came down with a viral infection abt 1 to 2 weeks ago. after that, she became so slow, that i juz couldn't take it anymore. i guess some things frustrate me, and i can't stand it when my laptop is so slow. for those of you who don't know yet, isabella is my laptop. =) i kinda like the name. think its a really sweet name.
i guess i am the type of person that doesn't like to work with the wrong kind of tools. in order for me to get any job done, i like my tools to be in tip top condition, and i also dun like to use 'blunt' tools. with my exams coming up (like this sat!!!) and being the frustrated person i am, i decided to reformat my entire PC so as to get it back to its old faster self.
sigh, spent like 5 hours today reformatting, getting some of my old programs installed, copying my files from the external hard drive back to isabella. she's much faster now, but there's this problem, where she hangs, or she justs stops working. i dunno wats wrong with her. this is the first time such a thing happened. i guess its the media player, coz i was using it to watch a webcast earlier. but it never happened before. sigh. of all the shit to happen.
so i was frustrated coz i didn't get much done today, other then watch Jose Rizal which i felt was very important for my Social theory paper. think i got a better understanding on why his thoughts were the way they were, and if u ask me, it is so parallel to Jesus's story. maybe the director made it in such a way, or maybe Rizal really did emulate my Lord. either way, i quite enjoyed that really old film. teaches me that in spite of what everyone else thinks, as long as you know that deep within you whatever it is that you're doing is right, and you know God is behind you in all that you do, even if the religious institutions are against u, then there shld be nothing to fear.
and funnily enough, Psalm 23 juz jumped right out at me today. for one, i guess it is staring at me on my wallpaper, and it is today's devotional readings, but something about it strengthen me in my frustration today. "The LORD is my shepherd, i shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i will dear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff they comfort me. you prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and i will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
he's telling me i'll find rest in Him. He's telling me that in all i do, exalt Him and trust in Him. all my work and effort will pay off eventually as long as i have Him by me. for i have found my rest in my Lord. have you?
i guess it is kinda silly of me to blog abt this in the midst of my exams, but if u ask me, i am nt too worried abt it already, coz i think Daddy's telling me i need to take a break, and He asked me to trust Him. so i will. i will take a short 30 min break, and attempt to settle my computer stuff.
may your healing hands come upon my beloved Isabella. for she has served me well thus far. =)
Speakth at... 9:53 PM
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