Monday, April 30, 2007

finished my revisions for my last module, so am taking the rest of the night off for now. as i had nothing else to do, and isabella has no games on her coz i absolutely refuse to have any such distractions, i chose to distract myself in another way. looking at the pics i have on her. sure brought back some fond memories.

but i guess the pictures that made me smile the most, and probably the saddest ones are those that happened last year december. memories of that time will definitely stay with me thruout. times with people whom i really treasure loads, and a place i still dearly love.

i can still remember the days leading up to it. hw i refused to spend more then $3 a meal (including drinks) juz so i cld afford the trip. i could also remember planning for it. i din do much, but it was still an experience. then right up to the nite before the departure, lying on kunal's bed and not being able to slp becoz of the exhilaration of traveling with friends, and lifelong buddies at that. something all the money on this earth cannot buy.

and i am sad after the smile. coz i know that such a thing will b hard to do again. no doubt i will be traveling with my special someone in time to come. i mean i do love to see this world as much as my eyes can take in, and before some disease takes my memories away. but to be able to travel, the four of us, it is something that will be really hard to do. shao's in aussieland, dutt's flyin to the US soon. pee's started sch, and i am hopefully ending my education between the next 2 to 3 years. after that, all of us will have plans to work, set up our home and settle down. i dunno if something like that can happen or not. i sure hope if God allows we will. how i wish i could relive those times again. i guess i will when i give my testimony to my Lord when i see Him.

but i guess i can't complain. at least i am able to have such an experience. many people on this earth never seen an aeroplane, much less fly on one before. some ppl sat on it before, but have never flown out of their region. i should be glad i am blessed enough to travel, and will be traveling in time to come. on hindsight, i dun think i am complaining, i guess i am juz sad abt the inevitable fact that something like that can never happen again. sigh.

life is short. it really is. 23 years of existence juz flown by. memories stay, muscles are developed and destroyed. friends come and go. we learn from our past mistakes, our past relationships. ultimately, it is our memories that define who we are. and define hw we act and think. i know because recently, it has juz become more obvious that i am a product of my experiences through talking to someone. it has been an enlightening experience. we will all leave this earth the way we came. naked... but we will be full of memories. money is worthless, material goods are worthless, friends, loved ones can't be carried to the next life. but the experience earned is worth far greater then anything this world has to offer, anything except the love and sacrifice our Lord gave.

i dunno wat came over me today. feel kinda in a reminiscing mood. nt sad or anything, in fact, i am very happy. i really am. exams coming to an end soon, gonna start the work i so enjoy doing, and getting to know a special someone better. i'm not saying all is good. there are some shitty parts. but i shall thank God that i have experiences that i can smile at.

so thank you. shao, kunal and peiwen. for being a part of my life. for being a part of my memory. if God allows, may we travel to some part of the world again, as friends. and this time, if money allows, ryan and leen, do tag along too. nothing beats good times spent with friends. and if ur respective partners wanna tag along, i say bring it on.

gosh... i really am looking into the future a lot these days. mayb its coz i can't wait till the future comes. i can foresee full of trials and tribulations. but with You, my Lord beside me, i will juz dance along with u, and keep my eyes focused on the one leading me all the time.

Spanks (Thanks), Lord. for blessing me so abundantly.

p.s. i hope God allows David's (i hope i remember his name rite) path and mine to cross once again. i promise i will set it right this time. i promise i will help him out. unlike last time where i ignored him.

Speakth at... 9:12 PM

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